Saturday 28th August 2010
by ShantiEvery year or so, I go through one of these periods where my brain jumps into overdrive and hundreds of ideas come to me out of nowhere. I have an outpouring of creativity across the board – web design, book design, language, filming, photography, music, clothing design, off-gridding my life… my brain feels like it weighs 20 pounds right now. This is where I get all my plans for my future, and decide who I want to be and what I want to do in my life, and it’s when I get the majority of my ideas that I later turn into projects for the next year or two (or ten) of my life.
Although it’s an overwhelmingly exciting time, whenever I go through a round of this I tend to become very introverted. I get lost in my thoughts frequently. I find it difficult to speak in full sentences for too long a time because my brain is constantly bubbling over, waiting for me to sit down alone and think about all these other ideas it’s just come up with. It’s maddening and thrilling all at once :P
Like I said, I become introverted and really just want to be left alone to my thoughts. I also feel a heavy sense of overwhelm — like I’m never going to be able to realize half of these dreams and ambitions. My poor closest friends and Cory… it’s not like I’m in a cave hiding away from people, I’m just generally less cheery and disinclined to engage in small talk, period. I just want to be in quiet so I can think…
The huge upside is that because I go through these unintentional waves of high brain activity (what else does one call it?), I can live the life of an artist and spend my time creating these ideas I have. The huge downside is that I have a lot of trouble sleeping while it’s going on.
The last time this happened to me it was fall, 2008, and I had a million ideas about weight loss and self-love and I really started to pour my heart into teaching on YouTube (as opposed to solely vlogging with me-updates) — but I also didn’t sleep for almost a month. I mean, I slept, but not much and sporadically. Usually I can sleep 9-10 hours per night without a problem, but during these times I sleep 3-6 hours a night and I’m usually up once during the night at least :/
I’m so excited about all the ideas I’m having for my life, and for you all, and for Cory and me!… but I’m also exhausted with it. I hope I sleep deep tonight x__x
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Tags: creativity, deep thought, inspiration, mindset, self-improvement
Shanti, I have passed too for the same “brain_full_of_ideas” period (don´t know how to call it) a lot of times in my life… Sleeping more hours helps a lot to come back to normality (hahaha, What is normal?), but the feeling of creation is so great and delightfull, that who wants to come back? :D
Personally when I return to my normal patron of thinking, then I feel a little depressed, and people around me can´t understand what happens to me in this creative moments…. (sight) Your new blog is amazing.
(Sorry for my grammatical mistakes, kisses from Spain)
Hi Shanti!
This happens to me every falls. This is really thrilling coz you’ve got so many amazing ideas! My husband is now used to it… and las week he said to me : hey Val ; in 2 weeks it’s september, you’ll be creating again! lol
Life goes on! People who know you and understand who you are will manage those periods!
Keep smiling!!!
Oh Shanti I can totally relate to this! I think it is definately something which happens to artistic people. And while it is amazing and so creatively inspiring – all the energy and ideas can sure be draining!
Good luck with it all!
xx